Today, I sat on the lightrail, thinking, reflecting and wondering about all the souls surrounding me and then I began to look around and noticed so many different expressions. Some people appeared to be happy and others just looked confused and angry and others just sat there with their headphones on and didn’t move or look in any other direction than the one in front of them. So many stories, lives and thoughts were with me during my journey home from work.
Another day of rest for me and my cat. Kids were gone and I did nada but relax and take pointless photos! Oh well, I didn’t mind one bit! Tomorrow, another day…another dollar. 🙂
This was my morning snack before my breakfast and even though these tiny banana’s topped with honey peanut butter don’t look to fancy..they sure did make my taste buds happy 🙂
Saturday…good ol Saturday. Today I did NOTHING!! That’s right…all day I slept and it felt wonderful! Although during one of my several bathroom runs, I decided to grab the camera and capture our cat sunbathing. He was not too cooperative while I was snapping but I was able to find one decent image.
I love Saturdays! Although I wish a special someone would hurry up and get their resume to me so we can lounge around together!! 😉
I don’t have a photograph to post today (well not yet anyway). Some thoughts are running through my mind and I thought I just jot them down really quick. Daily I am making an effort to understand my thoughts and to feel a sense of guidance towards my emotions. Recently I have discovered that In the past I would avoid feeling strong, intimate and unconditional emotions and I believe I did this to protect myself from disappointment or pain. If I was unable to feel, grasp or understand my own emotions then in return, I didn’t have the full capacity to feel compassionate for others. This of course did not apply to my children but I have recently recognized this defense that I unconsciously created it in order to protect my heart from judgment, from pain, from lies, from disappointments, from the ugly people who have crossed my path. But today, in this moment, I have come to realize that God has brought me to this place intentionally and with His pure love. He knew what I needed to experience in this life, in order to be grateful for today and to give back tomorrow. Today, I belong right where I am and this today will guide me to His tomorrow. His plans, I must trust in and I must come to understand that I didn’t end up here because I took a few wrong turns or made a few wrong choices in life but rather because I made all the right choices according to His plan in order for me to understand and appreciate life and love unconditionally. To want to understand His plans, to desire the need to find His will and I will continue trying until I achieve what He has intended for me to achieve in life. I am not afraid to fail but I am afraid not to try.